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I know that I've overfed myself trying to prop myself up because I'm exhausted.
Competition is for dogs and horses.
I didn't want to leave the Spice Girls and immediately have a record on the back of that fame, so I waited to find out who I am and what I want.
I want to come back with a bang. I've been licking my wounds. I've been in mourning after the Spice Girls, re-evaluating myself.
I am absolutely blessed and I'm very grateful for where I am today.
I have been wearing black, which was a reaction to the Ginger thing. But now I have hopes and I can be anything. Tomorrow I might be naked with a feather boa, who knows?
We're all just trying to fit in and find ourselves, particularly when we're growing up.
The truth sets you free. It's a very liberating thing, when you say this is who I am warts and all and then you can just get on with life. It's amazing.
I am happy but a piece of me is still really sad. It runs like from my shoulder across my breast, across my heart. I've had growing pains in my brain.
We are obsessed with image. I don't think we should take it that seriously.
There is nothing fake about how I look now. I had already thought about toning my look in the Spice Girls but people wanted to see Ginger Spice in a bustier and big boots.
Being mean about other people isn't on my radar.
In the end it was down to my principles and my morals that I was supposed to stand behind. It was supposed to be girlpower but I wanted real power. My new motto is staying power.
I want everything I do to be special and fun. Everything I have done I have always done passionately, with all my heart and soul.
I have never sung a whole song on my own before and I am not the best dancer in the world, but I would rather try and fall than not not try at all.
I won't mention the word tired. This is the 20th century and I can go around a little faster.
I want to communicate through my music. If you want to know Geri Halliwell listen to my album: it tells you more about me than a documentary ever could.
Who knows just where I'm going? ... Does tomorrow belong to me?
I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm damn well gonna do it!
It's really important to remember that most people in the public eye are human for a start and a lot of things that you read in the media get slightly misconstrued and manipulated.
I still cry a lot. I cry about the Spice Girls and I cry about my dad. He died just before I joined the band. I was always Daddy's little girl.
Becoming a solo singer is like going from an eau de toilette to a perfume. It's much more intense.
I didn't even play the first album to the record company-I did 13 tracks. Too many cooks spoil the broth. This time I've listened to people from the record company out of courtesy.
I have got one of those faces that change every day: you can dress me up, make me look vampy and then make me look 12 years old. But don't all women do this thing? We all take on these roles.
In school nativity plays I was always the bloody little donkey, I was never Mary.
I have never really had a singing lesson. I come from a real Artful Dodger background so I just blag it. I am having a real try here.
I'm never getting too lonely because it's the kind of disease where you might sit in front of the TV with three bags of biscuits, rather than communicate with the world.
There's always going to be that pressure when you're in front of the camera. When you're famous it's just an extreme version of reality and there's a pressure to look a certain way.
There will always be a few people who just want to knock you down or are jealous or just want to be horrible for the sake of it. I don't know what drives someone to be nasty.
I have always wanted a solo career, deep in the darkest pit of myself, but I didn't dare admit it to myself even. It took me a long time to confront my fears.
Some people are naturally thin and some people are naturally heavier. It doesn't mean that bigger is healthier, or much thinner is healthier, it's on an individual basis.
I was meant to be staying with him for three days and ended up staying three months.
I never let myself get too angry, or eat on feelings, you know stuffing food down. I find other ways to release my anger.
I've had singing lessons and plan to show off.
I'd never choose to turn the clock back.
Everyone has a mad half-hour once a month.
I feel fear about something, but rather than registering I feel fear about it, I relay how I feel to my body and the way that I look at myself-it's completely distorted.
I just grew out of Ginger Spice but I don't think she will ever completely die. Maybe when I'm a granny I will still be pinching people's bottoms-it's the Spanish in me.
If I ever get too hungry, that can trigger me, so I always make sure that I maintain really good, healthy eating habits-three meals a day. I never diet.
Someone taught me how to eat properly. Learning from others is important when it's not working for yourself.
George really looked after me, ... After I left the band, I was completely isolated. It was like being on a very crowded street and then getting into a car and shutting the door. I was lonely, and he showed me so much warmth.
It's not really about food or the body shape, it's just a way of dealing or coping with life-that's just for me.
My writing's got better, I feel more confident and more grounded with it and there's a transition in the music. It's got an eclectic flavour-there's a jazz theme, a couple of show tunes.
Other than It's Raining Men I've collaborated, particularly lyrically, from the beginning of my career as an artist.
Obviously Victoria and Mel B have become mothers and there is a part of me that wants to be a mum.
I've never allowed myself to be put through that sausage machine. I'm probably the most unmanufactured pop artist you could meet. It freaks people out when they meet me-they are very surprised by what a creative force I am in the studio.
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